Sunday, January 25, 2015

nope, havent written anything newsworthy in an while.

for this i am sorry. I just went back through several years worth of crap that i had written, and none of it was worth saving..and for this I am sorry. Since ive swore off of posting on facebook , i will be posting here from now on.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I liked myself better without a conscience

So I worked with this guy, had recently gotten out of prison... was a decent worker, a good worker. He actually was one of the best that i had in a long while. He worked there for maybe 3 months. Then he called me up frantic..."They fired me for suspicion of theft..." What? I played it off because i didn't really know him that well, and i wasn't sure what it was he was exactly accused of stealing. The thing is he works with just me, and one other guy. I thought maybe someone saw him lifting someone Else's  I Pod or wallet. After I went to work people one of the other guys that work during the day said, yeah, he was stealing wire. Now this wasn't little spools of wire, it was large spools of copper that probably weighed a few hundred pounds each.
What?
But he doesn't have a car...
and i see him leaving every morning with nothing but a thermos...
wait, he was my employee, and the company didn't question myself or the other guy who works with me...
and he would need a forklift
and have to drive right by me
and he didn't drive... at all.
after thinking about it and writing several letters explaining all this I started thinking maybe the company did catch him or see him when i wasn't there, I wasn't there all the time after all, and maybe...
I found myself rationalizing the companies viewpoint. I found myself finding excuses for the company.

but one thing keeps coming back. I cant believe there was any way he did it. And why if there are only 2 other people who work with him, ( me being his supervisor ) why didn't they ask us one question about the alleged theft?

What bothers me the most is that if the company I work for, the people who I have to trust, would actively pursue and or set this man up, what keeps it from being me next time?

Time to act...time to speak up,
time to
time to...
sit down and shut up.
 Because I cant afford to lose my job. Because i cant feed my family with integrity or pay the bills with a sudden new found sense of ethics. Because I cant sacrifice my family for one innocent man.
Because I am a coward.

Friday, November 26, 2010



We helped feed 5000 people today. Some of the things which humbled (and amazed)  me. 

  having a man ask me for a orange today to eat that was part of a display.  ( I gave it to him. ) 

Children who acted like i just gave them a X box when I handed them a small plate of curly fries... before we even opened the doors.

watching children who had never seen a x box before. 

Working with a soldier who had just returned from Afghanistan who i found out later, had no family to come home to.

watching my wife serve tables, talk , laugh, and hug total strangers, and treat each one she met with respect and love, like they were all old friends...

...for hours... 

...and she did not sit down nor eat, until all 5000 had eaten first. 

seeing a literal sea of men, women and children waiting patiently to get a coat. 

seeing that many coats handed out in 4 hours. 

being treated better by people I had worked with for 5 hours, than by people I have worked for 5 years. 

So many different small yet important things which I witnessed that both made me both unconditionally love, yet  despise and hate mankind.

As we settled in for the evening and watched the news cover all the people amassed in front of department stores ready to spend millions and millions of dollars on material items, My wife turned to me and said, Imagine if all these people took 10% of what they are about to spend... not all of it, just 10%, and gave it to a charity, how many people would that feed... how many could we house...

Imagine. 

As we were walking out today a homeless man turned to us, smiled and said, 

Don't just preach peace, practice peace. 

I think I'm going to try and preach a lot less. 

Monday, November 22, 2010

Friday, November 19, 2010

Changing the style of my blog

OK i'm bored with this back round. time for a change.

This is beautiful